Bread-Day Monday!

Today I made bread with Mr M @ B.Restaurant.

Its my new favorite thing!

Burger Buns, about to be baked in the oven.

(These burger buns, although look sweet, are temperamental.For some reason they dont want to look like the puffy cloud-like buns as seen in the above picture. Instead, they want to be flat, disk-like pucks. Not cute.)



Bread is difficult. There is NO room for error.

Or silly mistakes.

And I feel like I am the definition of silly mistakes.

Example #1:

I was loading the baguette dough into the oven today.

And when you are doing that, you have to be FAST when sliding the unbaked baguettes off of the paddle (called a “peel”) into the oven. If you arent quick, the dough turns crooked. And your nice baguette is now the letter “J”.

And that is ugly.

Well, today I told Mr.M that I could do it.

I had done it before – easy. i was unloading the dough off of my peel-stick, I somehow managed to drag one of the baguettes out of the oven – and onto the floor.

Don’t do that.


Example #2

8 + 4 does NOT equal 15

Example #3

Don’t go to the bathroom – and forget that- you have bread almost done in the oven. You will burn it.


More examples to come, I’m sure..




You are for me.

Lord, I know that You are for me,
I know that You are for me

I know that You will never
forsake me in my weakness
And I know that You have come now –
Even if to write upon my heart

To remind me who you are.

Listen now!


* got a new phone. Im now make even more texting mistake (its a touch-screen).

*I cleaned my room today.

*Tomorrow I am getting my hair done – possibly dying it dark!

*Also happening tomorrow: Dolphy comes home after a loooong time away @ the doctors! I missed her!

(dolphy is my car)

*I’m permanently done with E.Restaurant. Thank God.

* I turn 21 next week. Excited!

*Weekly tea parties are my new favorite thing.

*a cute song!

Long time ah – comin’

Sooo I felt like compiling all of the best heart-break songs I know (since I feel like I’ve had a year dedicated to listening & moping-along with them).

I think it will be neat to come back in a year and see my list.

  • Almost Lover – A Fine Frenzy
  • Ashes & Wine  – A Fine Frenzy
  • Somewhere with You – Kenny Chesney
  • My Hands – Leona Lewis
  • Cant Breathe – Leona Lewis
  • Breakin’ at the Cracks – Colbie Caillat
  • I Never Told You – Colbie Caillat
  • Heartbreak Warfare – John Mayer
  • Like We Never Loved at All – Faith Hill
  • Dont Forget – Demi Lovato
  • Dont You Wanna Stay Here a Little While – Kelly Clarkson & Jason Aldean
  • Last Kiss – Taylor Swift
  • What Hurts the Most – Rascal Flatts
  • Here Comes Goodbye – Rascal Flatts
  • Missing You – Tyler Hilton
  • All or Nothing – Jay Sean
  • Picture – Sheryl Crow & Kid Rock
  • Red Light – David Nail
  • Thats Another Song – Bryan White
  • Dead Flowers – Miranda Lambert
  • Tonight I Wanna Cry – Keith Urban
  • Just a Dream – Nelly
  • Let Him Go – Katie Armiger
  • Probably Wouldnt Be This Way  – LeAnn Rimes
  • When I Said I Would – Whitney Duncan
  • Smile – Nat King Cole
  • Breakeven – The Script
  • Cry  – Kelly Clarkson
  • Only Fooling Myself – Kate Voegele
  • Living for the Night – George Straight
  • Trouble Is – Allison Iraheta
  • The Truth  – Kris Allen
  • Rolling in the Deep – Adele
  • September – Daughtry
  • I Cant Love You Back – Easton Corbin
  • Please Dont Go – Mike Posner
  • Obsessed – Miley Cyrus
  • What Do You Want – Jerrod Niemann
  • Colder Weather – Zac Brown Band
  • A Little Bit Stronger – Sara Evans
  • The Truth – Jason Aldean







Making Sense


Sometimes, what you want the most doesnt happen,

and what you least expect, happens.


So for the past few months, I have not been happy at E.Restaurant.

I had been wondering why, trying to be content at E.Restaurant, trying to find ANOTHER job, trying to find out where God wanted me at.

I have been looking for nanny-jobs nearby, and abroad. I wanted to stay close by, because I had been really excited about moving in with my sister (twweeeedle!). But nothing was becoming available (at least, nothing I was especially EXCITED to do..). I had applied to a dozen or so “nanny/au pair abroad” programs. A couple nanny job options seemed promising, I was excited, but then they fell flat (either logic and/or a realization…).

After a specifically horrifying day at E.Restaurant I decided I would rather give my two weeks and still be looking for a job, then to continue working there.

I told my pastry chef, and she understands. She had wanted to “leave” also, but I had a feeling my desire to leave was stronger than hers. And she might not be as motivated as I was.

But at least she’s on my side.

Weelll, look who messaged me saying he gave his two weeks! None other than Mr S.

And guess who called me, the next day, begging me to help him out. Mr Jefe! The boss-man @ B.Restaurant!

I dont know WHY in the world he hadnt pinned down someone for pastry, (he was really busy and has other stressful priorities that were greater?) after the previous pastry person gave his two weeks. But that previous pastry guy had his last day on Sunday.

And as of that moment, at 4:45pm on Monday, they only had an extern working pastry @ nights. Who only had less than 3 weeks experience. And was leaving in two weeks.

And at that moment, peace.

Napa, here I come!

I felt like B.Restaurant was the answer. It was perfect timing (Mr S was leaving), I wanted out of E.Restaurant, and a job that wasnt tooooo permanent. Plus, a bonus was that I was helping him out – and he owed me. Big time.

Which pretty much means I have control over my schedule. And my vacations I want to take. And when I want to leave (if I ever get a nanny job..).

The only negative? Gas is closing in on $4 a gallon.

Oh, and that Dolphy (my car)  is in the repair shop.. So I have to drive my mom’s minivan.




All of my pictures on my blog (from two posts ago and on) are “missing” and are now blank.

I had moved all of them from my desktop to a folder. They were cluttering it up.

And I think its going to take me a while to replace them.

So I’ve been putting it off..

First Cake



Sunday, I made my first cake.


Yes, I know! Everyone thinks people who work with pastries & desserts would be great at making cakes. NOPE!

I have never done it.

I happened to make every mistake I could possibly make.

{saggy and uneven}

{screwing up buttercream three times}

{layers were short and fat – not tall and elegant}

{cake layers were so close in size – one was only a little bit smaller. It looked stupid.}

But, as much as I hated making that cake…I kinda want to make another.